Please help me!! I'm SOOO scared..

hey denise
I live in Amsterdam, Holland.. So that's probably not an option..
Luuk and I broke up because I've been throwing all my anger in his face day after day.. He just got tired off me crying and yelling I guess.. I can't remember when I really had to laugh the last 2/3 months..
oh well.. Life's a bitch..

Xx

Joya

Sorry to hear your having a hard time at the moment. Vent all you want here, we're here to listen and help you through this. I understand where you coming from, it is really hard to keep your emotions in check all the time, especially when your on pred and it is throwing your emotions and feelings all around the place.

When i was younger and on pred, my mum said i was a downright bitch lol. I was also going through puberty as well, so that didn't help the situation. When i was on it recently, i really had to work really hard to make sure the pred didn't wreak havoc with my emotions too much. i was probally more tired from the effort, but i was happier at not fighting anr arguing with my parents.

We are all gonna have a down days and every woman wether she has ITP or not has down days and thats fine. It is fine to have days when all you wanna do is cry or feel sorry for yourself, but try not to spend too much time on feeling sorry for yourself otherwise you will miss out on too many good things in your life. whats the saying, laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone.

You seem like such a strong bright young woman and i'm sure you will come out the other side an even stronger woman once you have figured out a way to live and deal with the ITP.

Joya:

I remember the anger! It was hard to control. When I was at work, I would get so wound up I had to release it, so I'd go into the bathroom for a few minutes, cry, and go back to work. When I was at home and felt that way, instead of yelling at my 3 kids, I'd go into my bedroom for a while, cry, and go back out there. That was my way to deal with it without yelling at people. I knew life had to go on and I couldn't risk getting fired or making my kids miserable. Taking time outs when you need them is one way to manage it. Hopefully, you can find a way that will help you.

Hello everybody!

Thank you so much for the responses! It makes me feel less alone.. I went to my therapist today.. She officially diagnosed me as being depressed.. (Great another diagnose) And now she is transferring me to a place where we will start a program to learn how to deal with all of this and the depression.. Wich I already had before being diagnosed with ITP..

I don't cry a lot.. I just stay in bed.. doing useless stuff on the computer, watching tv.. So I don't have to think.. But the things that are important that I have to do.. Just don't happen.. According to the therapist that's part off begin depressed.. It just makes me angry at myself.. Great joya.. you waisted another day with doing absolutley nothing..

Just hope thing will get better as everbody keeps on saying..

xx
Joya

Joya:

Maybe small goals for yourself each day would help? Like...tomorrow I am going to _______________, then make yourself do it. You might feel better if you accomplish something small and can then move on to something bigger.

I'm glad you are getting help. Hang in there.

I try to do that.. And it's great if I reach the goal.. But if I don't I feel even more miserable.. But my therapist also told me to keep on doing it untill I reach the goal most days of the week..

So.. goal for tomorrow: E-mail my school counceler.. And start catching up on some school work.. (Tomorrow I think I'll make my evaluations..)

Xx

Good for you! You can do it!